ucapan ghayaku!

eid mubarak to all!

maaf ya Allah!
maaf ya rasul ku Muhammad!
maaf mak!
maak bapak!
maaf abang!
maaf Zu...li!
maaf D.n!
maaf R.m.i!
maaf adik!
maaf kak A.s.a.H!
maaf mak n..i!
maaf pak a.!
maaf saudara maraku!

maaf teman2 sekolah!
maaf fa....ni
maaf teman2 matriks kmpp!
maaf teman2 ipti!

maaf naqibah2 lamaku!
maaf usrahti2 lamaku!
maaf akhawat2 yg pernah bertemu dulu!

taqaballallahuminna wa minkum!

tercedera!

feel like seriously, a drama artist
the title is "Lukaku di jaLan ini"
sounds so so so drama!huh

love acting, true!
back to my past school years,
"x sah x join sketsa"

but now, slowly disappear
why?
the reality of life not a drama
but ya, it resembles the drama
so, what for play when you know life is more than play

difference?
fake drama directed by people
life reality directed by Allah

"bukan la pelakon wanita terbaik menjadi taruhan,
magfirah Allah yg didambakan"

sometimes we watch happy story
sometimes we watch sad story
sometimes comedy, hehe
and many other themes

I would refer Rasulullah as a base of my script

"tahun sedih Rasulullah was when Khadija and Abu Talib left him"
Rasulullah sedih because he lost them

so, it's fitrah sedih when something is missing

I lost as well
I guess

my Nafs
danger! danger!
almost collapse but He is a Savior

He=Allah

saves me from deviate
lemahnya rasa, lemah sangat sangat sebagai hamba!
x ada kekuatan melainkan ingatan padaNYA

"yg menjadikan hidup ini gembira dan sedih"

andai darjat keimanan dan ketaqwaan ini diuji,
maka bantulah aku menghadapinya
ya Allah
sampai aku bisa melupakannya
moga KAU izinkan ak utk terus berusaha!
menghambakan diri
memakmurkan bumi
dalam Jalan Tarbiyah dan dakwah ini

aminnn...

the day i was born

i not I
why?

i=verb
I=noun

i was born to love Allah
i was born to love Rasulullah

there is no love if do nothing

i as a symbol of you should have done many things

but

i as a symbol of how small i am compared to Allah and Rasulullah

but Allah said

"Maka barang siapa mengerjakan kebaikan sebrat zarah, dia akan melihat balasannya"
{al-zalzalah:7}

every single effort Allah counts

because of love, give thanks

i sometimes forget about appreciating

and after all,

because of love, i give thanks

thanks to Allah and Rasulullah

to all family members
love so much and jazakumullahukhair

to all OF antunna
in my heart always
Jazakunallahukhair!

wallahua'lam

lari-lari mencari diri

lari-lari mencari diri

kenali diri
dekati Ilahi...

evaluasi diri
reflekti tarbiyah ini

tarbiyah diri
masih prioriti

bukan pinta lebih di saat kurang memberi
cuma merasakan kekuatan perlu dicari

lalu bagaimana harus ku tempuhi
andai laluan tetap bukan pilihan hati

perlu teguh berdiri
mencari solusi
memperbaharui hati membaiki insani

umpama mengerti
tadhiyah jiwa raga ini

dibandingi sahabat2 Nabi
lebih dilukai
sila berteguh hati wahai pemudi

merasai kemanisan iman melalui
kekurangan diri
lebih beerti disulami
redha ketentuan Ilahi

wallahua'lam

iman kerna DIA

manusia tu alpa
x kira apa statusnya

sesungguhnya
Allah saja yg x pernah tidur
malah x akan pernah lupa kita
walau sesibuk mana pun DIA

as for that reason

binalah iman kerana DIA
bukan kerana manusia

wallahua'lam

compang camping hati

my dear
it's like you have no other things to think

but
on top of everything
is what lies inside

Be strong from within
redha is an answer to every single thing

but
Allah lihat pada usaha

effort is what Allah sees
cure is better than prevention

it seems to appear i have no other things to do

but
i cure myself through sharing
on top of every single work i do
i reflect
reflect what lies inside

what is that problem goes round and round?

what i can do?

to cure quickly
to be a better slaver
a better worker of Allah

wallahua'lam

silence speaks

silence
it's alive
it's awake

as for me
silence carries ton of thoughts

kata Rasulullah: "berkata baik atau diam"

as for me
sometimes

lidahku kelu
tulisanku pengganti bicara

kuingin jauhi cela
jauhi sengketa
jauhi prasangka
jauhi duka sesiapa

tp YA ALLAH
bicaralah denganku hambaMU
walau penghambaanku x sesempurna mana