alhamdulillah

kdg2
kita cuma perlu rasa bersyukur

syukur dihadiahi
syukur disayangi
syukur walau dibenci
syukur walau diperbandingi
syukur disakiti
syukur diingati

seperti anak2 di sekolah yg bermasalah
dlm perhatian guru

kita sebenarnya dlm perhatian Allah
berusahalah, bermujahadahlah, positiflah
memperbaiki iman dan amal

doa

sometimes have to admit,
know but do nothing
it's like you feel the breeze but do nothing
not even say Alhamdulillah

kind of x bersyukur
nauzubillahimindzalik

we are all climbing
to reach the top of the world
to Ustaziatul Alam

the path can be slippery
might slip or fall
but,
it's us, it's you, it's ME
to push myself, to keep climbing

jalan tarbiyah
mungkin saja keidealan x kunjung tiba
tp bingkaslah memperbaiki hati, menerima keadaan
walau dulu dihujani butir peluru menglonglai jiwa
usah membatasi diri dek usaha yg x seberapa
Allah sahaja yg berkuasa membatasi manusia dan hatinya
(al-anfal:24)

kembalikan hati dlm keadaan basah imannya
keringkan titisan jahiliyah

ikan laut masin berenang2 ke laut tawar

nyawa2 ikan, pernah rasa?

bila mana laut air masin
x sesuai sbg habitat seekor ikan,
mungkin sahaja ia ikan air tawar
yg perlu kembali ke habitat sebenar
utk terus bernafas

umpama jln tarbiyah diri,
kdg diasuh bukan di tempatnya

bukan mudah renangi lautan
moga ganjaran Ilahi dlm ingatan
agar bisa berkejaran
membaiki kejahilan serta kelemahan

menyerahkan diri
itulah Islam sebenar di hati

besarkan hati
percaturan Ilahi
hikmahnya sukar diselami
namun pasti
menguji hati, menambah iman diri

dan agungkanlah tuhanmu
(Al-Mudassir:3)

ucapan ghayaku!

eid mubarak to all!

maaf ya Allah!
maaf ya rasul ku Muhammad!
maaf mak!
maak bapak!
maaf abang!
maaf Zu...li!
maaf D.n!
maaf R.m.i!
maaf adik!
maaf kak A.s.a.H!
maaf mak n..i!
maaf pak a.!
maaf saudara maraku!

maaf teman2 sekolah!
maaf fa....ni
maaf teman2 matriks kmpp!
maaf teman2 ipti!

maaf naqibah2 lamaku!
maaf usrahti2 lamaku!
maaf akhawat2 yg pernah bertemu dulu!

taqaballallahuminna wa minkum!

tercedera!

feel like seriously, a drama artist
the title is "Lukaku di jaLan ini"
sounds so so so drama!huh

love acting, true!
back to my past school years,
"x sah x join sketsa"

but now, slowly disappear
why?
the reality of life not a drama
but ya, it resembles the drama
so, what for play when you know life is more than play

difference?
fake drama directed by people
life reality directed by Allah

"bukan la pelakon wanita terbaik menjadi taruhan,
magfirah Allah yg didambakan"

sometimes we watch happy story
sometimes we watch sad story
sometimes comedy, hehe
and many other themes

I would refer Rasulullah as a base of my script

"tahun sedih Rasulullah was when Khadija and Abu Talib left him"
Rasulullah sedih because he lost them

so, it's fitrah sedih when something is missing

I lost as well
I guess

my Nafs
danger! danger!
almost collapse but He is a Savior

He=Allah

saves me from deviate
lemahnya rasa, lemah sangat sangat sebagai hamba!
x ada kekuatan melainkan ingatan padaNYA

"yg menjadikan hidup ini gembira dan sedih"

andai darjat keimanan dan ketaqwaan ini diuji,
maka bantulah aku menghadapinya
ya Allah
sampai aku bisa melupakannya
moga KAU izinkan ak utk terus berusaha!
menghambakan diri
memakmurkan bumi
dalam Jalan Tarbiyah dan dakwah ini

aminnn...

the day i was born

i not I
why?

i=verb
I=noun

i was born to love Allah
i was born to love Rasulullah

there is no love if do nothing

i as a symbol of you should have done many things

but

i as a symbol of how small i am compared to Allah and Rasulullah

but Allah said

"Maka barang siapa mengerjakan kebaikan sebrat zarah, dia akan melihat balasannya"
{al-zalzalah:7}

every single effort Allah counts

because of love, give thanks

i sometimes forget about appreciating

and after all,

because of love, i give thanks

thanks to Allah and Rasulullah

to all family members
love so much and jazakumullahukhair

to all OF antunna
in my heart always
Jazakunallahukhair!

wallahua'lam

lari-lari mencari diri

lari-lari mencari diri

kenali diri
dekati Ilahi...

evaluasi diri
reflekti tarbiyah ini

tarbiyah diri
masih prioriti

bukan pinta lebih di saat kurang memberi
cuma merasakan kekuatan perlu dicari

lalu bagaimana harus ku tempuhi
andai laluan tetap bukan pilihan hati

perlu teguh berdiri
mencari solusi
memperbaharui hati membaiki insani

umpama mengerti
tadhiyah jiwa raga ini

dibandingi sahabat2 Nabi
lebih dilukai
sila berteguh hati wahai pemudi

merasai kemanisan iman melalui
kekurangan diri
lebih beerti disulami
redha ketentuan Ilahi

wallahua'lam