wander no!

not wandering away
my dear friends

kerana keluarga itu
yes

always be a place of showering my feeling
dulu, kini, selepas

not wandering away
my dear friends

kerana keluarga kita berbeza

ups and downs
personalise thingy
it's between keluarga itu

as time goes on

being showed another way
not only keluarga itu
whoever being tied with 8:63
just don't let me stray away

usrah oriented

sana sini usrah
artis pun ada usrah FITRAH !!!

pentingnya usrah utk kita kembalikan Fitrah Islam
di muka bumi

Bumi Palestin bumi cinta
perlukan kita berusrah
membaiki iman pertingkat taqwa
menyebarkan risalah Islam nan indah

mungkin cebisan cuma
dari millions of panahan peluru zionis
hiruk pikuk dlm usrah

mungkin cebisan cuma
dari millions of panahan peluru zionis
simpang siur after usrah

mungkin cebisan cuma
dari millions of panahan peluru zionis
compang camping kerana usrah

size doesn't matter
usrah or ghazwah

the seriousness of tarbiyah
what it takes to be human

to care of Palestine more than our own happiness
to cure our kerabat, masyarakat for better Islamic performance

Musa and Harun

a story to share
how significant this at that moment

in front of the check in NZ counter
baggage allowed 20 kg
berat bersih: 28.2kg

know that clarifying will take place shortly

at first tenang ja
start speaking...terkumat kamit broken grammar
Thanks to Allah for planning someone beside
yeay, it's you

the clarification
It goes much better
not really about exceeding baggage

but
the power of truth
the lesson to apply from Al-Quran
Allah is everywhere

Gaza

feeling of selfish
if writing about me

do I ever care about my "saudara"?
panng!

how my LOVE should be big, bigger, biggest
devoted to Allah

not ruining your life with all those
kekangan, kekurangan

because of GAZA
voices of Islam, actions of Islam, heart of Islam
perlu dibumikan, perlu disebarkan, perlu ditarbiyah

Be strong my dear
It's gonna be challenging

but
gonna be your very first thing
aim number one
no matter
where you are
who you with
what you have

Allahuakbar!

dear fillah

dear fillah

sometimes
no words to describe
syukur Ya Allah
bring antunna to shine my life

colours of my life
antunna coloured with me

doesn't matter
beutiful or not
I know it's Allah's plan

roughly
one year and half
being through this path with antunna
no words to describe thanks
no sign to express love
no gifts to show appreciatiation

it's hard
taaruf is never easy for me
but the power of getting to know antunna
show me the meaning of ukhuwah fillah

thousands of apologise
aseef jiddan
minta ampun
I did hurt antunna's feeling

if I could scream
to all
whoever on earth and in the sky
please
simbahkan kasih sayang kepada ukhti ______ kepada ukhti _______ kepada ukhti _______
kerana aku sendiri tidak mampu
mungkin shj kasih sayang aku x akan pernah cukup utk membalas curahan kasih mereka selama satu tahun setengah ku di sini

moga kesilapan dan kekhilafanku
diampunkan dan dilupakan ya ukhti
menyerabuti hidupmu dgn kisahku
x cukup sekadar terima kasih
menggembirakan mu mungkin aku sendiri perlu belajar semula secepat mungkin

deep deep deep
I would scream oh Allah
bring happiness to them
spread my thanks and love to them

I would be different in the eyes of them
because they are special in the way they are

how I miss
but to appreaciate the rest
I have to as well

guide me oh Allah
tawazun

get what you give

in the eyes of Allah
it's different
because HE is Ar-RAHMAH
Litte we give, more we get

dear u.h.i fillah
I know it's not easy
it even harder to me

not making you smile
if that is me,millions of apologise

fragile deep down here
maybe
kind of

no loose hope
in me
even me will shift the perspective
forgetting the past

many trials frustrated
not the end of me
it' s just being insan
sort of tired
but
not the end of me

as Kaab being ignored
after making mistake

I'll rational that as well if you ignore me

I did so not well
and one point did make mistake
when I know I am not helping but wandering away

wake up call a few days back
haunting me

one week leave!
not running
refresing, renewing and most important forgetting the past
I was drowning in my own poor memory

Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum melainkan dia yg mengubah nasibnya
ar-rad:11

things cant change but I can change
even form zero, just take your first step as you always

Ya Allah,
take all poor memories of mine
give me strength to take new step, new vision

dear u.h.i fillah

me
this time
a newborn sort of
but not to be pampered
to be educate

the shine of me
moga kuasa Allah permudahkan segalanya..
aminn.

astagfirullah astagfirullah astagfirullah

alhamdulillah

kdg2
kita cuma perlu rasa bersyukur

syukur dihadiahi
syukur disayangi
syukur walau dibenci
syukur walau diperbandingi
syukur disakiti
syukur diingati

seperti anak2 di sekolah yg bermasalah
dlm perhatian guru

kita sebenarnya dlm perhatian Allah
berusahalah, bermujahadahlah, positiflah
memperbaiki iman dan amal

doa

sometimes have to admit,
know but do nothing
it's like you feel the breeze but do nothing
not even say Alhamdulillah

kind of x bersyukur
nauzubillahimindzalik

we are all climbing
to reach the top of the world
to Ustaziatul Alam

the path can be slippery
might slip or fall
but,
it's us, it's you, it's ME
to push myself, to keep climbing

jalan tarbiyah
mungkin saja keidealan x kunjung tiba
tp bingkaslah memperbaiki hati, menerima keadaan
walau dulu dihujani butir peluru menglonglai jiwa
usah membatasi diri dek usaha yg x seberapa
Allah sahaja yg berkuasa membatasi manusia dan hatinya
(al-anfal:24)

kembalikan hati dlm keadaan basah imannya
keringkan titisan jahiliyah

ikan laut masin berenang2 ke laut tawar

nyawa2 ikan, pernah rasa?

bila mana laut air masin
x sesuai sbg habitat seekor ikan,
mungkin sahaja ia ikan air tawar
yg perlu kembali ke habitat sebenar
utk terus bernafas

umpama jln tarbiyah diri,
kdg diasuh bukan di tempatnya

bukan mudah renangi lautan
moga ganjaran Ilahi dlm ingatan
agar bisa berkejaran
membaiki kejahilan serta kelemahan

menyerahkan diri
itulah Islam sebenar di hati

besarkan hati
percaturan Ilahi
hikmahnya sukar diselami
namun pasti
menguji hati, menambah iman diri

dan agungkanlah tuhanmu
(Al-Mudassir:3)

ucapan ghayaku!

eid mubarak to all!

maaf ya Allah!
maaf ya rasul ku Muhammad!
maaf mak!
maak bapak!
maaf abang!
maaf Zu...li!
maaf D.n!
maaf R.m.i!
maaf adik!
maaf kak A.s.a.H!
maaf mak n..i!
maaf pak a.!
maaf saudara maraku!

maaf teman2 sekolah!
maaf fa....ni
maaf teman2 matriks kmpp!
maaf teman2 ipti!

maaf naqibah2 lamaku!
maaf usrahti2 lamaku!
maaf akhawat2 yg pernah bertemu dulu!

taqaballallahuminna wa minkum!

tercedera!

feel like seriously, a drama artist
the title is "Lukaku di jaLan ini"
sounds so so so drama!huh

love acting, true!
back to my past school years,
"x sah x join sketsa"

but now, slowly disappear
why?
the reality of life not a drama
but ya, it resembles the drama
so, what for play when you know life is more than play

difference?
fake drama directed by people
life reality directed by Allah

"bukan la pelakon wanita terbaik menjadi taruhan,
magfirah Allah yg didambakan"

sometimes we watch happy story
sometimes we watch sad story
sometimes comedy, hehe
and many other themes

I would refer Rasulullah as a base of my script

"tahun sedih Rasulullah was when Khadija and Abu Talib left him"
Rasulullah sedih because he lost them

so, it's fitrah sedih when something is missing

I lost as well
I guess

my Nafs
danger! danger!
almost collapse but He is a Savior

He=Allah

saves me from deviate
lemahnya rasa, lemah sangat sangat sebagai hamba!
x ada kekuatan melainkan ingatan padaNYA

"yg menjadikan hidup ini gembira dan sedih"

andai darjat keimanan dan ketaqwaan ini diuji,
maka bantulah aku menghadapinya
ya Allah
sampai aku bisa melupakannya
moga KAU izinkan ak utk terus berusaha!
menghambakan diri
memakmurkan bumi
dalam Jalan Tarbiyah dan dakwah ini

aminnn...

the day i was born

i not I
why?

i=verb
I=noun

i was born to love Allah
i was born to love Rasulullah

there is no love if do nothing

i as a symbol of you should have done many things

but

i as a symbol of how small i am compared to Allah and Rasulullah

but Allah said

"Maka barang siapa mengerjakan kebaikan sebrat zarah, dia akan melihat balasannya"
{al-zalzalah:7}

every single effort Allah counts

because of love, give thanks

i sometimes forget about appreciating

and after all,

because of love, i give thanks

thanks to Allah and Rasulullah

to all family members
love so much and jazakumullahukhair

to all OF antunna
in my heart always
Jazakunallahukhair!

wallahua'lam

lari-lari mencari diri

lari-lari mencari diri

kenali diri
dekati Ilahi...

evaluasi diri
reflekti tarbiyah ini

tarbiyah diri
masih prioriti

bukan pinta lebih di saat kurang memberi
cuma merasakan kekuatan perlu dicari

lalu bagaimana harus ku tempuhi
andai laluan tetap bukan pilihan hati

perlu teguh berdiri
mencari solusi
memperbaharui hati membaiki insani

umpama mengerti
tadhiyah jiwa raga ini

dibandingi sahabat2 Nabi
lebih dilukai
sila berteguh hati wahai pemudi

merasai kemanisan iman melalui
kekurangan diri
lebih beerti disulami
redha ketentuan Ilahi

wallahua'lam

iman kerna DIA

manusia tu alpa
x kira apa statusnya

sesungguhnya
Allah saja yg x pernah tidur
malah x akan pernah lupa kita
walau sesibuk mana pun DIA

as for that reason

binalah iman kerana DIA
bukan kerana manusia

wallahua'lam

compang camping hati

my dear
it's like you have no other things to think

but
on top of everything
is what lies inside

Be strong from within
redha is an answer to every single thing

but
Allah lihat pada usaha

effort is what Allah sees
cure is better than prevention

it seems to appear i have no other things to do

but
i cure myself through sharing
on top of every single work i do
i reflect
reflect what lies inside

what is that problem goes round and round?

what i can do?

to cure quickly
to be a better slaver
a better worker of Allah

wallahua'lam

silence speaks

silence
it's alive
it's awake

as for me
silence carries ton of thoughts

kata Rasulullah: "berkata baik atau diam"

as for me
sometimes

lidahku kelu
tulisanku pengganti bicara

kuingin jauhi cela
jauhi sengketa
jauhi prasangka
jauhi duka sesiapa

tp YA ALLAH
bicaralah denganku hambaMU
walau penghambaanku x sesempurna mana

Keluarga itu

Keluarga mana lah tue???

percaya atau x
keluarga itu
punca kekuatanku

percaya atau x
keluarga itu
punca imanku

percaya atau x
keluarga itu
punca perubahanku

percaya atau x
keluarga itu
punca solatku

percaya atau x
keluarga itu
punca ikhtilatku jaga

percaya atau x
keluarga itu
punca ibu bapaku hormati

percaya atau x
keluarga itu
punca sayangku pada abang serta adik

percaya atau x
keluarga itu
punca doaku

percaya atau x
keluarga itu
punca mushafku hayati

percaya atau x
keluarga itu
punca salamku hulurkan

percaya atau x
keluarga itu
punca kasihku curahkan

percaya atau x
keluarga itu
punca hatiku girang

percaya atau x
keluarga itu
punca masalahku lerai

percaya atau x
keluarga itu
punca urusanku atur

percaya atau x
keluarga itu
punca redhaku

percaya atau x
keluarga itu
punca tabahku

percaya atau x
keluarga itu
punca cintaku

cinta pada SANG PENCIPTA

yang menciptakan kekuatan, iman, sayang, doa,kasih, kegembiraan, penyelesaian
segala-galanya

keluarga itu
keluarga itu

mungkin juga
mungkin juga
SANG PENCIPTA
mencipta keluarga itu
untukku mengerti

bumi mana x ditimpa hujan
keluarga mana x ditimpa kecelaruan

yang sesungguhnya
keluarga itu
milik tuhanku ALLAH

Dan seungguhnya Dia lah yang menjadikan orang tertawa dan menangis
(an-najm:43)

tangisan dan kegembiraan kerana DIA adalah sebaik-baiknya

wallahua'lam

"if" i can fly without wings

Assalamualaykum

want to fly without wing,
maybe can try sky swing.

pantun dua kerat in English

what makes me want to fly?
been away from family
if I can fly for a while.

Oh my Rabb ya ALLAh,
fly YOUR angel fly
fly to Sungai Petani
take good care of my family.

mcm2 ada!

apa lah yg mcm2 nya???

sahabat2 nabi mcm2 ada.
ada yg lembut, ada yg garang, ada yg pemurah, ada yg tegas, ada yg cerdik, ada yg hitam, ada yg putih
tp semuanya GENERASI AL-QURAN, generasi al-quran yg UNIK!

nak katanya iman sahabat2 nabi ni memang bertunjangkan AL-Quran semata.

nak katanya KITA ni pun mcm2 ada.
ada yg pemarah, yg pemalu, yg lembut, yg pengemas, yg peramah, sila nyatakan sendiri...
ada keUNIKan tersendiri

jadi kita mampu sebenarnya jadi generasi AL-QURAN yg seterusnya!!! kita mampu!
sebab tu ALLAH x tinggal kan nabi utk kita tapi ALLAH tinggalkan mushaf tu tuk kita baca dan hayati.

sayang kalau QURAN tu sekadar perhiasan rak buku kita.

nak katanya KITA nak masuk syurga
katanya ALLAH,

al- fathir:29-30

Sesungguhnya orang yang selalu membaca kitab Allah dan mendirikan solat dan menafkahkan sebahagian daripada rezeki yang Kami (Allah) anugerahkan kepada mereka dengan diam-diam dan terang-terangan, mereka itu mengharapkan perniagaan yang tidak akan rugi.

Kerana Dia (Allah) akan menyempurnakan kepada mereka pahala mereka, dan menambahkan kepada mereka daripada kurnia-Nya (Allah). Sesungguhnya Allah adalah al-Ghafur(Maha Pengampun), lagi al-Shakur (Maha Mensyukuri).

Wallahua'lam

masih di sini kah?

alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah

masih...masih di sini.
di bumi kiwi.
perjalanan yg pasti,
padaku membawa seribu erti!
walaupun mungkin masih x aku fahami.